Things i did today

• went to school for remendial
• went to tiong to meet shimah
• Have a quick bite in kfc
• went to popular and bought some stationery
  
• went for a facial appointment
• went to my family clinic to see doctor
• walked to bukit merah to find my auntie
• at my auntie's hse teaching my cousin maths
• together with my auntie went to buy some durians which costs her $20
  
• watching tv while eating
• took a bus home
  
• reached home at 7pm
  
• took a shower
  
• now sitting down and using the comp
• turn on the speaker and playing some music
• doing my homework
• end for the day
• no dinner
  
• time to sleep
• ............................................................................
  

What is important on my list.

• Get all my facts right for my subjects!!!!! [two to three more months]
  
• Get my homework done!
• Save money!!!
• ............................................................................
  

Plan what for tomorrow

• no tv programmes
  
• no games
• study again
  
• need a lot rest
• ...........................................................................
  

What i'm looking foward to

• going h*******
  
• attend tuition
  
• do my spidergrams
• do memory registration
• do my FYS & TYS
• waiting my cousin rachel from US back to S'pore
  
• a shedule to my fren's hse
• a movie
• wanna to live a carefree life
  
• getting a good night's sleep
  
• to find something that i can relax myself
• ...............................................................................
  

Hows i'm feeling now

• a heavy heart
• bothered by the day's happening
• stoning
  
• crying badly
  
• worrying about my troubles that prevents myself from falling asleep
• can't sleep well
• cant concentate
• numbed
  
• not the usual self
• migraining
• ..........................................................................
  

Who do i miss

• my nanny and uncle
• my relatives overseas
• my grandparents who are no longer with us
• pui shushu again no longer now [a retired sinseh]
• my BF rebecca [sorry for the harsh tone on the phone]
  
• ...........................................................................
  

what i like most about myself

• i'm lucky to have friends by my side
• nothing much

What i wish to do

• die!!!
  

thelittlematchgirl
9:00 AM

Do you wanna know who i am?
i'm a girl with two eyes, two ears, one nose and one mouth. hahaha! so lame!

`okok! be more serious.

Do you wanna to know more about me?
so let moves on...
I'm a easy going person. Sometimes, i'm blur like sotong. [This is people who told me]
However, i cares for my family and friends around me.[even you are not my friend]
what on earth? humans? living things and non-living things?
i want to live life to the fullness.

In another words to say:
i have reasons for whatever i do. Even i dun like it, i still have to accept.
Let me find the definition of ACCEPT: [hmm... found]
1a: to receive willing
1b: to give admittance or approval to accept the another partner
1c: to endure one another and without protest or reaction
1d: to acknowledge the person

meaning of Trust:
2a: to place confidence in [a friend you can trust]
2b: to rely on the truthfulness or accuracy of [believing in you]
2c: to hope or expect confidently [trust the person]
2d: to do something without fear and misgiving
what did i do wrongly this time again? if anyone tell u something, will you try to check it out on your own. i think you i will. ( It is not KPO lor!!!)
Do you know i'm always the one take the initiative to apologise. All awhile i realising that i had been apologised everytimes we verbal fought. Always suspecting me for not trusting you? I really dunno what other things u will be saying to me the another time. i really so disappointed that ways you ask me? i really dunno how many thousands of ''SORRY'' do u sia?
i'm tired~
goodnight people!!!

thelittlematchgirl
7:11 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ldCidGGcKI
i'm enjoying this video very much!! ahahhaha!!~
THIS CLIP IS TO PEOPLE WHO I LOVES!!!
I HOPE THEY WILL LIKE IT TOO!!
who is BM? well HE is a friend of mine.
HE is a very sensitive person.
so you people dun be sooo anxiety to ask me who is BM?
alright! i stopped here.
gotta to do my HOMEWORK!!~
so now i gotta watch it again!~ ahahahah!!~
GOODNIGHT YEA!!!! ._.

thelittlematchgirl
9:26 AM

arrgghh!~ today school is celebrating racial harmony day. ermm.. ''quite enjoying'' with the performance under the sun hor. lols. ''absorbing vitamin D and is good for the skins''.
yeah!! After sch, can go home liao. when i boarded up the bus, then the bus stopped at the next stop. AN OLD MAN boarded up and came to sit beside sia. he really looks weird to me especially his actions and dress code, moreover he talking to himself sia. what he did, i was totally buay tahan. He was looking at me from head to toes sia, damn psycho sia. he was giving me a stupid smile. furthermore he went into details what i was exactly doing and moving his butt closer to me. arrrgghh!!!! how i wish i reached my stop lor. what he did was really very irritating sia and i wanted to alight at that moment lor. sheesh, damn sickening old man, shouting across my head. somemore, alighting together with me at the same bustop!!! he was following behind me leh, in dead meat liao. i was afraid and helplessly. what to do? walk the different routine back home. damn pissed off just now, hope everything will be fine for me. atlas back home safely!!!!!!

ahaha, i realised i got a stalker who i dunno her and she know all my wherebout sia!!!!

thelittlematchgirl
2:56 PM

Today, the whole day in school was like wasted?! All the teachers are absented except maths and poa the only two periods we attended. As well better, dun come school today. Get on to sleep and do all my piles of homework which is cant finish at all sia. such a boring day i had today!!!

ermm... at around 6plus to 7pm plus. i was alone at tanjong pager. A very familar face was standing in front of me? It was the freaking mr lee loitering at there talking to his friend. i walked toward him and tried to disturb him.

i said: '' hihi!!'' to lee.
lee : ''hey!!hey!! meihar why are you here?''
i replied: '' i lives nearby ma! so what u doing here sia?''
lee's reaction: '' he was ll sia!!''
lee told his friend: " she is my student.''
lee : '' so coincidence, last wk , ur all got super teens workshop,
and this wk my turn liao.''
lee told me: '' he got this 3 days course, his speaker was adam koh sia!!''
lee: '' dunno is it? a motivation course for teacher!''
lee's fren interrupted: '' ya!ya! he was famous for all such course!''
i was thinking didn't ernest told us before...
lee: ''told me that one friend of mine between our sec 5 also took
adam koh course before.
(sorry, cant tell u who the person.)
lee: '' pointed me the building that these three days he will be here
for the course.''
i replied: ''okay!, so bye!! bye!!'' to the two guys.
so i quickly made my moves first and let them continued with the chit-chatting lor.

back home now.
sheesh, whole family went to eat dinner without me!!!
Poor daddy, he went to hospital for his injured leg for follow up.
My dad skins was 4% burned. it was seriously injured and his ankle also went swollen liao.
Oh gosh, he was not able to work for two weeks!!
NO MONEY!!! NO INCOME!!! SO BROKE!!!
what to do sia!!! waiting for recovery lor.
Do my homework!!!, stop slacking liao.
Goodnight!! ZZzzz... ...

thelittlematchgirl
9:23 PM

Why must we attend the super teens workshop in the first place right???
Firstly, come to my mind was stupid workshop and wasting my time and the duration was so long lor. BUT i was wrong.
well, these three long days. It was a meaningful workshop i ever attend before.
i didn't expect that this course let me learn how to spend my time wisely and know what are my goals and dreams. All awhile i am a poor memory person + no time planning at all. This why my parent always scold me for being so blur at home. This is what my parents favourite sentence '' After sch, come home, play comp, watch tv, do nothing or go out and not doing a single homework. worst still, they compared me to my brother that i have to study so hard than he do. ya lar, he is clever and i'm stupid all the times. SO WHAT if he pay attention in class and he get TOP IN CLASS ''FIRST POSITION" and does not mean he do not have to do homework at all. This is so boastful of my freaking brother is.
i always like to chiong and revising my homework at the last minutes esp during exams.

This wonderful super teens workshop is a WAKE UP CALL. i really can't deny this fact. Although, we all left with 3 months plus. yet, we are working hard towards OUR GOALS. The biggest objectives of this workshop is to help the graduating pupils to develop GREATER MOTIVATION and INCREASED CONFIDENCE to meet the challenges ahead, OUR big "O" level examinations. From this course, we learn to STUDY EFFECTIVELY and PRINCIPLES and STRATEGIES to achieve personal goals.
all credits goes to ERNEST WONG and his partners, KEN, GABRIEL and PETER.
i learns a lot of concepts that can't buy with money.

On the very first day, i missed some talks, i confessed due to the chinese "O" ORAL in the afternoon. All of us just learn some basics study tips that i supposed we already know. Luckily, there are some lames and cold jokes that made me stay awake.

Day 2, this course went further than expected. Everyone in the LT 4 was touched by the speakers who triggered our unhappy moment in our past. THEY made me recalled back two of my grandmothers passed away together week after week. This ernest went to globe into our background and our ESSAY and we wrote on the very first day. i was so scared what i had written and he will read it out. Becos most of the ''VICTIMS'' come from the sec 5 lor. Suddenly, ernest was frustrated and he threw the glass cup at one corner. i was like stunned at the moment. What he was doing was to make us in the LT 4 cried badly. especially, he mentioned that he wanna us to meet someone important in OUR life. Actually, when i closing my eyes, i was thinking hard who was the important person was it my myself, parents, siblings or friends. ermm, i have already knew the answer. BUT i didn't expected that one of the speakers came to me and told me to open my eyes and see who the person i was hoping to see. another song,"Hero" by mariah carey.
Who you all guys saw in the mirror?? Answer: myself.
i was trying to control my tears but failed.
That night i sleep well maybe due to the serious heavy eyes bags i got.

I was feeling YEAH!!!YEAH!!! because i coming to the last day of course on friday. He made me REMEMBERED him after this course ,down deep in my heart. The best of the night was ernest's story about his father. i was really touched. Even those who didn't wanna cried also cried badly. BUT what surprised me was shimah wasn't crying. haiz, my parents can't made their way to RVHS to listen the ''SPECIAL DEDICATION'' made by ernest. The very last part of the closing ceremony was to hug our teachers. On that day, it was my FIRST time seeing miss khoo cried and miss choong crying inside the toliet!? she came to me and asked me for tissue. hey!! of course, i gave it to her lar. lastly, one piece of song dedicated to us ''If we hold on together" by diana ross.
what the ****!!! my parents thinking why so late still haven't go home! keep on calling me during the talk. argghhh... ....
When i was back home, time was 11pm plus sia. i'm super tired than. ZZzzzz...

hahaha!!!! i think i'm missing ernest voice.yeesh, he is my living motivation. Every words he mentioned is all for our own good. i loves his favourite sentence ''I am a nice man, and i loves childrens. hehehe~
afterall, he really a nice chap as before i thought a crazy fellow. hahhahha!!!!

The most important is following your own thoughts.

Today, i told everything to my mum that what was going on and what she missed yesterday. Before i talking finished she interrupted and was telling me '' Aiya, all these things, i know lar.!! I think she really needs to sign up this workshop, she really dun know what was going on!!! all i did was to PROVE IT TO HER THAT THIS WORKSHOP meant a lots to me, and shaped my thoughts. She was thinking that i was trying to be funny with her sia!! she went to TEST me!! what the **** sia!!? a silly mother i have. She made me doing all the household chores at one go. I PROVED IT TO HER THAT SHE WAS WRONG. She and my sis was clever, went to test me by trying to tempt me to watch tv. nope i didn't interested at all. so surprising, cos i know myself that i'm those ppl watch tv and rooted to the ground and hates interruption during the shows begins.had a new haircut.

yawned!!! sleepy liao lar.
Goodnight than! ZZZzzzz... ...

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poor dad, accidently scalded by hot water this morning. So stubborn of him, insisting to work for today. now he was screaming in pain. i'm feeling bad cos i was standing at one side looking at his large patches of swollen legs.
damn scary.
NOW MY SISTER and MY DAD GOING TO HOSPITAL A&E to see a doctor.
Later, my mum and i going to close the shop.

thelittlematchgirl
2:39 AM

Today, is our Day 2 of our Crazzy super teens workshop. In another words to say, this workshop is very different from others i had ever went before. probably, i'm being touched by the speakers ba. Made us cried and laughed at the same times which including myself. Ernest Wong is a crazy man. What he did today is to triggered our unhappy things, which most of the others workshop doesn't. He really lectured us, which some people could not accept it as well as some people also doesn't take it serious at all.
sheesh... tml will be the very last day of the workshop liao.
aiya, i got to do some works le lah!! as ONLY 5% success the GOALS while the another 95% are bochap.
goodnight. ZZzzz... ...

thelittlematchgirl
11:36 PM

Thanks KAY!!! Who is always there for me, when i was down.
Wonderful phrases from KAY for me :
''it norm for someone to like someone of the opposite sex.''
''no use brooding about the past.''
''always the one who is forgiving is feeling more hard to forgive the person.''
Yet, it was still no reply yea?!! haiz... you understand what i saying lah.

crazzy super teens workshop from 8am to 9pm. luckily, there are some lame and cool jokes to make everyone laugh out loud mang!well, at there at least learn some good study tips. After the workshop, i really must thanks this reb who made me taking the wrong bus, very funny hor, made me like a BIG kuku, took the wrong bus.
sianx, i'm damn tired for the day.
time to sleep liao.
goodnight. ZZZzzzz... ....

thelittlematchgirl
12:00 AM

thelittlematchgirl
5:36 PM

Am i throwing you off
i don't think so
that feelin' you givin' me really drives me crazy
you don't have ta about the joke.
i was at a loss of words first time we spoke
looking for a girl that'll treat you right
you lookin'for her in the day with the light
you might be the type if i play my cards
you expect me to let you just let you hit it
But will you still respect me if you get it
you wanna get in my world, perhaps you get lost in it
your chivalry is dead
if i'm out of this world
would you come with me to my planet
get you on my level
do you think you can handle it
i'm a big girl i can handle myself
But if i get lonely i'ma need your help
will you be there
to pay attention to me
hey! what kind of girl do you take me for?
don't be mad, don't get mean
don't get mad, don't be mean
i mean no harm
you know what i mean
i'm only trying to get inside your brain
to see if you can work the way you say
It's okay, it's alright!
i got something that you gon' like

Is that truth or am i talking trash???

thelittlematchgirl
3:58 AM

ahhahahhaha~ gettin' new phone soon.
the new phone- k800i (sony ecrisson)
YESH!, I'M BUYING.
NO SECOND THOUGHT this time round.

argh!! save money!!
HOPEFULLY, I'll GET A GOOD PRICE OF SELLING THE PHONE-
MOTOROLA- RAZORV3X.

K800i, i'm coming for it!!! xD


ya ya, ''changing phones more than BF''
This is what ppl always telling me. lols. xP
sorry, cos i have to do this again.
can't help it, cos phones is my BF what!

thelittlematchgirl
11:59 PM

As usual, everyday the same routine to school.
my dad drove us but today just on the dot to school.
kinda in a rush. x(

ermm... i was feelin' migrane in the ******* morning.
i was thinking about the thing i've gonna do.
kinda feelin' my mind is gonna blow.

Have you ever thought of what you told me before anot?
as time goes by, i realized i really dunno you at all.
somehow, i felt that you're like a storm against the window.
when you are in a good mood, you will be nice.
when you are in a bad mood, you will be so strong till you broke my window panes.
did you ever think who will be there for me than?
answer: No one
the carelessness of me, ending up hurt myself in the end.

if you are the cannon ball. i will throw you into the sea prevent you from exploding and hurting others. xD

thelittlematchgirl
5:30 PM

i shall update my blog. everyday got so much homework.i'm so stressed up. furthermore, the chinese oral is just next week.i think i should starts reading some passages.
No matter what happens, i still try to slot in some time for you.
Yet u didn't appreciate and left me alone there. You had never thought of my feelings at all.
let me waited and waited. so many missed calls, dun bothered to pick up at all and at a single msg.
can you spare a thought for me??? Have you think of that anot???
i didn't asked you to waste time on me and i even asked you finish work den go luh. Ask you something, u seemto be bochap.
seem like i owe you money like that. If like that, i should learn to say NO next time than.
you went back and didn't tell me at all until a short and sweet sentence '' GO HOME YOURSELF.''
wonderful lor. i should applause u a BIG clap right.
What a stupid day i spent today.
when i back home 11.30pm, my bro came to ask me what happened. Once he saw my expression can figure out that i was angry.
no more expectation from you anymore, it is what i learn from you de lor.

thelittlematchgirl
12:00 PM

wooh hoo~ long time didn't updated blog.
back to school.
shattering OUR happy days during hol.
what i realized? Teachers starts stressing us liao.
HOMEWORK;HOMEWORK!!!

I found out that i was slacking during my hol.
As a results, i got tons of hm turning out to be undone.
sheesh... i have to buck up!!!
TARGET: everyday is a MUST to do my hmwk.

hahahahaha~
i have a very good way to keep yourself awake.
sources from MR LIAO at tuition.
He told us to keep yourself awake from work or study.
after a long period of time.
TAKE POWER NAPS!!!!!
This POWER naps is from the origin from japan.
The company of XXX, they will make their employee to take a nap during work time.
so cool right? such a rules to follow.GOOD hor
BUT, this power naps is only 10 mins only. ( not more than or less than)
this POWER NAPS allow one work more efficency.
we should try then.
no wonder japanese is so hardworking at all times lah!!!
XD

thanks you baby!! ><*
erm hmmm... busy watching worldcup at 3 am --Italy VS Ukraine

thelittlematchgirl
2:45 AM